Over and over again♥

it's new year tomorrow, yet i'm not going to have one. it just feels so different, so unlike the others year when i think my whole family will be so busy with the stuffs and all. but wells, it isnt bad afterall just to stone there and relaxe. still a kind of 'new year' la. 3days had gone by, sure it's fast but it's tiring as well where everyone didnt get good sleep at all especially those adults.

wonder where's my grandma now, one thing for sure, she must be happy up there:)

i really will miss her presence, just thinking that i wont be able to see her ever again really really is a saddening thing ever. i may not be close with my grandma, but sure she was the one who saw me grow up bit by bit till now. she wont be able to see me getting married and seeing her future great-grandchildren, where initially i thought she will have the chance to get to see all this.

grandma must sure to be happy just like what my mom told me, cause' so many people came for the funeral and having 33 flowers and 30 blankets, rest in peace granny. i really really really will miss you!

we cousins, have like a few laughing sessions too, cause some things that they did, or we are purpose to do are wired or funny la. we even did things that we are not require to, but when it comes to the last day everyone mood changed. we have all the same feelings, we're all sad because we wont be able to see granny ever again.

actually, i really cant think of anything to blog either, only that i had my reuinon dinner with my girls. sure we had a great time man, it just feel so good going out with them talking and all, must have more of this kind of session!

maybe we'll have another session on this saturday again!!! woooo!!!

looking forward to it la. :)))

slack slack slack time now!!

you just seem so far from me,

i cant reach up to you.

i tried my best,

but you made me lost confidence.

how hard can this be when i needed you the most at my side,

and when i think back on those words that you said,

my heart simply break into milions of pieces.

disappointed is the only word that can describe how i'm feeling now.

and it's all thanks to you.

let's just see how thing goes,

please go back to the old self that i once knew,

just wont you?

GOD BLESS.

YYY

rest in peace..